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I've finally made an actual blog as a writer. You can find it here. Come join the (I hope) fun, ye few who read this (yes, BtNers, I'm looking at you).
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I have been writing plenty lately: history papers, creative nonfiction essay class essays, rewrites of all of the above, and senior project (luckily, creative). But I have NOT been writing any of my novel or anything else that isn't getting graded in two weeks.
Here's where it gets interesting. I always wondered if I couldn't write for Life Gets In the Way reasons beyond typical stress, how I would handle it. Graduation, the past couple weeks or so, is the only time I'm voluntarily giving myself a Life Gets in the Way pass, since about six months ago when I decided to take myself seriously as a writer. I secretly thought that maybe I wasn't cut out to be a writer and the proof would be in the pudding; I wouldn't miss writing. I would be so wrapped in the Life that Got in the Way, I wouldn't worry about writing. That didn't happen.
Even while stressing over the job hunt (and I mean stressing to the point of physical problems) and scurrying to hand in a paper, the stories (OMWF and a couple other ideas have joined it) are always there. I'm itching to work on them. I know that doesn't mean anything, per se, and that there are ebbs and flows to writing, but I think it's partly an indicator of my new attitude toward writing. I am determined that I am a writer and I will write once I graduate and get done with the crazy schoolwork, etc. (One doesn't earn a degree every day.)
At the same time, I want to be able to say that no matter what Life throws at me, like graduation, that I am so dedicated that I write anyway. I could be writing but I don't think it would be any good. I don't think this makes me any less dedicated. I also think that as I'm a "newbie" and still developing my discipline that this "break" is not the worst thing. I'm still just amazed that when I'm not writing, all I want to be doing IS writing. A year ago if I'd had a Life Gets in the Way sized excuse, I probably would have thrown in the towel on OMWF, on writing in general. The more I don't write, though, the more I'm determined that I will. But not in the stressful "I have something to prove" way that could be part of it.
I had more to say but I shall have to edit later. I hate when I lose my train of thought. (Never post while preparing dinner...)